An Open Letter to My Future Daughter

My child,

(not my photo)

You are blessed with gifts. Gifts that not everyone has. You are special and you know that. As you grow old, you will witness the love and joy of life but along with these are pains, regret and sorrow. I know you will think of giving up but my child you have a long way to go. Cry if you must but do not stop. You may bleed but you can scream. You will feel alone and that feeling will linger for a very long time.

People around you will not understand the hostility happening inside you. They cannot help you even if they want to. Be strong because you have to battle it on your own. You will lose. Many of it. You will taste the bitterness of defeat.  You will be hurt and your heart will sore. My child, you will weep and beg for help but you see nothing and no one will be there. You will feel alone and you will not forget the feeling of being one.

You will feel hate. Show them. They deserve to know that you are hurting, that you are helpless. You needed to be strong so you turn everything into films of hatred. Your soul is breaking and dying inside and you find hatred as the only way to survive. So feel it.

But my child, you will still feel the isolation. Grudges only consume your soul – burying it even more to the gaping abyss of the unknown. You will be lost. Your soul feels empty. Lost and empty.

Remember my child, when you feel this way. Do not wander too far because enemies are lurking over you. They know you are weak. You are vulnerable. You will stumble in the dark. When this happens, someone will offer his hand and you will accept it, thinking he will rescue you. You run to him for safety. You will feel his heart and will listen to the melody of its thumping heartbeat. You will let him embrace your soul. You will let your guard down because you think you are saved. But my child, you are being deceived and when you find out, you will be crushed. Your heart seems to stop beating but tears keep on falling. You have to remember this moment; light will guide you to the right path. You will squint for the light is shining strong. But do not be blinded. The light will take your vision and that’s all he wants.

Go on my child, crawl if you must, but do not stop. You will get there. Dirty, tired and thirsty. But you will get there.  You will tell yourself, “Im done. I don’t want to do this anymore. I’m cursed. Of all people, why me?”.

My child one lesson I will teach and you have to remember this.

When you feel alone, people will see you as someone full of hatred and anger. But they do not know, you just needed one thing -  love. But I’m telling you, Take care of your heart. Other than your soul, it is the most vulnerable. The heart feels anything and everything. Bliss. Pride. Success. Sorrow. Pain. Regret. Failure. Love. Hatred. Disappointment. The heart is strong but weak at the same time. So take good care of it. Do not love when you are hurt. Do not love when you feel alone. Do not love when you are mad. Do not use love as your escape. Do not risk your heart even if it demands freedom. Take hold of it. Do not give in to its ingrained defiance.

Love does not exist for these awful reasons. Love is love. It is pure. It is a blessing. So learn to recognize a deceitful love from a pure love. You will not notice this the first time but you will learn eventually. Do not stop loving. You have a lot to give. Keep it that way. Give your best. So that when it’s time to walk away, you’re sure you will never look back ever again.

Do not stop. Remember these words. Take these words seriously. No matter how bruised you are. Do not stop. No one has the right to tell you to stop.

My child, sometimes life will throw shit on you- everything at once and you will think you are the unluckiest person there is. You will build walls and hide in your own cocoon. Because you believe being by yourself is the safest way to avoid life. Life will be hard, I know. But do not stop living. There is much more to discover other than the pain and sorrow. You just have to live and see for yourself that life is worth living. Everything including all those shit happens for a reason. One day, you will understand that you are made for something great because you are special. So do not stop being one.