“ I'm waiting for the day when I can have you by my side again, until I've had my fill; that's all I ask to create a world where I can always find refuge if I need it; not so far away that I can't be seen to be having an independent life and not so close that it looks as if I'm invading your universe”
Waiting.....
I guess I have been waiting for you all my life since I found out what true love means. Waiting makes me tired at times...angry... irritated...helpless...worst it triggers me to give up. Every other day I felt different emotions but above all of these confusing and disturbing feelings – one thing I'm certain of is the love I felt for you.
Haven't you asked yourself if this is just a mere coincidence, a fluke of nature or destiny?
Because I do. I do ask myself if this is just another game that life wanted us to play and if this is really another life's game, I want to win this time (that if life will treat me fair). I already had you once but I lost it. Now destiny or whatever they call it, gave both of us a chance. Would you grab it or would you just let go? You don't have to throw back the same question because I will always give you the same answer like I have always said many years ago...Yes!I would grab it and will hold on. I didn't sacrifice this much if only I would just refuse at the end.
But even if I wanted you this much,I don't want to push you to your limits. I don't want to succumb you to do the same. What I want is that you will be at peace with your feelings. I want you to be happy when you are ready to make a choice. I want you to know what you want.
I'm willing to wait because I love you and because I love you I don't want you to love me "just because I love you".
It's crazy to think that I see my future with you. Am I too stupid to indulge myself into a reverie that seems so unreal? And I am too childish if I assume you feel the same way?
Do you see things the same? Do you envision yourself with me? Hmmm..silly thoughts..
Allow me to say that I am stupid and I am really a certified daydreamer but nevertheless I'm still the realistic optimist. Before I foresee all these pictures in my mind, what I'm excited about is you to become successful and become the man that you wanted to be.
While you realize all of your dreams, I will gather all my strength to wait for you until you will become the man ready to be loved by me.
And if waiting for you would mean hurt and pain – then I will be willing to bleed for you. It will only come to a halt when you tell me to stop loving you..when you tell me that you don't love me anymore...but even if our love story will end, you have to know that I will never love a man the way I loved you and if I did I will be living in a body of a different woman because for me there's one and only you.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Words of GoodBye to my Smart Girls
I hate to utter this word but I think I need to. “ Goodbye” to my colleagues and friends in Smart. I am very grateful that I had the opportunity of working with people like you guys..( echus!drama ang introduction...)
AHEM....!
Before I will leave the office and will not see you guys for maybe days or weeks I have to drop something special.hehehe....dili regalo ah!
Let's begin with Ate Anet...
Ate thank you for being the person that you are. Thank you for being the ATE of the group. To us girls you have been so caring like every ate's in the world do. To you ate I bequeath my talent of saying “ Mangaon tah”...ikaw ate ang musonod sa akong mga yapak na palakaon..bira ate! Hantod buhi pa ta kaon jud but don't you worry kay naa man ka diet strategy courtesy of your mother..ahehehe..ate I hope when I see you again naka score naka..hahaha..btaw ate..seriously whether HE will arrive or not, I am still wishing you life full of love. Singleness doesn't mean you have nothing. It only says that you have enough love to be offered to everyone, equal and sincere. Lab u ate.
To Palac, the future adik next to me..hahaha..ambot ani niya oi maulaw pa cguro xa ug pakita sa iyang true colors..hawja palac!ayb nah!...btaw, among the girls it's you that I haven't spend so much time like sa camiguin but it doesn't matter at all kay eventually nakabalo rako na adik d i pud ka..hahaha... mmm.. I bequeath to you my talent of being paras at times nga bc silang tanan..samuka jud cla gen..pag mag utang ang isa utang tanan..pag magkaon ang isa kaon jud tanan...para pag ting sweldo hurot bayad sa utang..hahahaha..(evil laugh)..btaw, gen palac...sa iyo ko pinauubaya ang pag ka amaw..lab u gen.
To my only student..(waaa..ambot ngano pud nga nituo ni xa sa ako..hahaha)..Valen..bata..hehehe...oi basin baya ug nanganad ka na tawagon ug bata..tigulang na raba ka..ayaw pagpalabi oi..hehe..valen you're not getting any younger so think maturely and wisely. In life you can't stay forever young in mind..you have to think and act old because there are many things and situations in this world only old and mature individuals can understand. When it comes to Michael, padayon lang sa imo gibati.crush ra btaw..it's harmless but kung mulampas pa mo beyond that (kana kung nireply na xa sa imong tx..hehehe)...you should be very happy and responsible. Seldom lang maabot ang event na magdayon mo sa imong crush. And if ever, if lang pud makauyab na ka hinay2x lang..ok? Undangi na na imong SS501 kay di na ma imo... mabuang nalang ka ana... sila wa kaila sa imo...PUYO!
And lastly to Rutty..iya kong idol when it comes to sexiness..waaaa,..btaw don't you worry so much sa imong body mao ng uso karon(ask ate gani..hehehe)..your simplicity shows your true beauty. I know you are a responsible ate because it shows and you will be blessed because of that. But your being responsible doesn't mean you have to forget your own happiness. You have your friends who are always there who support you and that is one of your treasures. Don't underestimate your self because you're the only one "living rutty girl" in this world. Keep your self -esteem at it's peak. Be confident. It's incessant that you will face trials in life but all these things are unwrapped gifts...you are the one who will find it's true gift...a gift that will bring you happiness and satisfaction. Don't' you give up. You're beautiful and you have to know that.
Hay..mao lang na ako maiingon..BYE nah.....hehe btaw guys I will miss you so much..i will always remember you and whatever happens in the future I'm the same Goldy. Oding, goldax or cge nalang adik pud...that you have known..magkita ra jpon tah..ayaw mo ug drama dra...Love you Smart girls...
AHEM....!
Before I will leave the office and will not see you guys for maybe days or weeks I have to drop something special.hehehe....dili regalo ah!
Let's begin with Ate Anet...
Ate thank you for being the person that you are. Thank you for being the ATE of the group. To us girls you have been so caring like every ate's in the world do. To you ate I bequeath my talent of saying “ Mangaon tah”...ikaw ate ang musonod sa akong mga yapak na palakaon..bira ate! Hantod buhi pa ta kaon jud but don't you worry kay naa man ka diet strategy courtesy of your mother..ahehehe..ate I hope when I see you again naka score naka..hahaha..btaw ate..seriously whether HE will arrive or not, I am still wishing you life full of love. Singleness doesn't mean you have nothing. It only says that you have enough love to be offered to everyone, equal and sincere. Lab u ate.
To Palac, the future adik next to me..hahaha..ambot ani niya oi maulaw pa cguro xa ug pakita sa iyang true colors..hawja palac!ayb nah!...btaw, among the girls it's you that I haven't spend so much time like sa camiguin but it doesn't matter at all kay eventually nakabalo rako na adik d i pud ka..hahaha... mmm.. I bequeath to you my talent of being paras at times nga bc silang tanan..samuka jud cla gen..pag mag utang ang isa utang tanan..pag magkaon ang isa kaon jud tanan...para pag ting sweldo hurot bayad sa utang..hahahaha..(evil laugh)..btaw, gen palac...sa iyo ko pinauubaya ang pag ka amaw..lab u gen.
To my only student..(waaa..ambot ngano pud nga nituo ni xa sa ako..hahaha)..Valen..bata..hehehe...oi basin baya ug nanganad ka na tawagon ug bata..tigulang na raba ka..ayaw pagpalabi oi..hehe..valen you're not getting any younger so think maturely and wisely. In life you can't stay forever young in mind..you have to think and act old because there are many things and situations in this world only old and mature individuals can understand. When it comes to Michael, padayon lang sa imo gibati.crush ra btaw..it's harmless but kung mulampas pa mo beyond that (kana kung nireply na xa sa imong tx..hehehe)...you should be very happy and responsible. Seldom lang maabot ang event na magdayon mo sa imong crush. And if ever, if lang pud makauyab na ka hinay2x lang..ok? Undangi na na imong SS501 kay di na ma imo... mabuang nalang ka ana... sila wa kaila sa imo...PUYO!
And lastly to Rutty..iya kong idol when it comes to sexiness..waaaa,..btaw don't you worry so much sa imong body mao ng uso karon(ask ate gani..hehehe)..your simplicity shows your true beauty. I know you are a responsible ate because it shows and you will be blessed because of that. But your being responsible doesn't mean you have to forget your own happiness. You have your friends who are always there who support you and that is one of your treasures. Don't underestimate your self because you're the only one "living rutty girl" in this world. Keep your self -esteem at it's peak. Be confident. It's incessant that you will face trials in life but all these things are unwrapped gifts...you are the one who will find it's true gift...a gift that will bring you happiness and satisfaction. Don't' you give up. You're beautiful and you have to know that.
Hay..mao lang na ako maiingon..BYE nah.....hehe btaw guys I will miss you so much..i will always remember you and whatever happens in the future I'm the same Goldy. Oding, goldax or cge nalang adik pud...that you have known..magkita ra jpon tah..ayaw mo ug drama dra...Love you Smart girls...
Thursday, November 5, 2009
It's My Birthday
It’s my 22nd year here on earth and I feel very blessed.
Instead of celebrating this day for myself I would like to thank the people who have made this 22nd birthday the happiest day ever.
Sako mama na walang kapantay ang Love ug pagkaparas (master sa kaadikan)..hehehe
...the best mom in the world there is.
Mama thank you for all the visible things that you have given me and even for those unseen gifts .Lab you mother. Words are not enough to compliment you for being the strongest and daring person I’ve ever known.
To my brothers na mga pasaway..Thank you nalang sad..hehehe…
...for making me angry and irritated mostly during the awkward times..
How I wish magmature namong duha kay two of you are pain in the ass..hahaha
Sakong mga adik na friends…high school and college friends. Then and now..Same adik people..hehehe
Thank you for letting me show my unique personality and thanks 'coz you’re not bothered by it.
Thanks for the patience and acceptance that my illness has no cure..hahaha..
Pero maskin ani ko I know palangga kau ko ninyo..hahaha..(ayaw ng palag!)
(sorry wala ko pix with others eh!next time nalang..)
To my smart family..ahehehe..kani sila for eight months I don’t know how they manage to understand me..hahaha..(napugos guro ni sila bah..) haha..btaw I’m very thankful that I’ve known such people. We’ve shared many funny, irritating and stressful moments but the ultimate moments were the times we laughed on silly nonsense things..adik pud kau ni cla..ambot aha ni sila nagliwat…(hahaha…eyes roll..)
And most of all thank you God for the endless love. I have failed and disappointed you countless times already and yet you never felt tired of showing me that there are good things that will come my way. I owe everything to you. I wish that I will be able to have that strength to follow everything that you will tell me because I know that you will lead me to my own success and happiness.
Haaaayyyy..it’s always good to feel this way. I’m so grateful for the 22 years I’ve been here fighting the trials of life and celebrating every moment of triumph.
Before, I keep on searching for the happiness and satisfaction that I hardly noticed I already got them all. (^_^)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ODING!!
A year to leave
A new year to live.
Instead of celebrating this day for myself I would like to thank the people who have made this 22nd birthday the happiest day ever.
Sako mama na walang kapantay ang Love ug pagkaparas (master sa kaadikan)..hehehe
...the best mom in the world there is.
Mama thank you for all the visible things that you have given me and even for those unseen gifts .Lab you mother. Words are not enough to compliment you for being the strongest and daring person I’ve ever known.
To my brothers na mga pasaway..Thank you nalang sad..hehehe…
...for making me angry and irritated mostly during the awkward times..
How I wish magmature namong duha kay two of you are pain in the ass..hahaha
Sakong mga adik na friends…high school and college friends. Then and now..Same adik people..hehehe
Thank you for letting me show my unique personality and thanks 'coz you’re not bothered by it.
Thanks for the patience and acceptance that my illness has no cure..hahaha..
Pero maskin ani ko I know palangga kau ko ninyo..hahaha..(ayaw ng palag!)
(sorry wala ko pix with others eh!next time nalang..)
To my smart family..ahehehe..kani sila for eight months I don’t know how they manage to understand me..hahaha..(napugos guro ni sila bah..) haha..btaw I’m very thankful that I’ve known such people. We’ve shared many funny, irritating and stressful moments but the ultimate moments were the times we laughed on silly nonsense things..adik pud kau ni cla..ambot aha ni sila nagliwat…(hahaha…eyes roll..)
And most of all thank you God for the endless love. I have failed and disappointed you countless times already and yet you never felt tired of showing me that there are good things that will come my way. I owe everything to you. I wish that I will be able to have that strength to follow everything that you will tell me because I know that you will lead me to my own success and happiness.
Haaaayyyy..it’s always good to feel this way. I’m so grateful for the 22 years I’ve been here fighting the trials of life and celebrating every moment of triumph.
Before, I keep on searching for the happiness and satisfaction that I hardly noticed I already got them all. (^_^)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ODING!!
A year to leave
A new year to live.
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