I thought I was okay. I thought everything was alright but I was wrong. Stranded in this cold, lonely place, I was a complete stranger. I certainly had no idea on what awaits me here. At first, I thought it was a challenge but after a painful realization, it was more of a bad luck or you can even call it a curse from the devil’s dungeon.
It was far from what I anticipated of this place. I thought the coldness of this place was sweet, a romantic haven but it was the other way around.
In this place, I tasted the bitterness of loneliness, licked the wound of solitude. Without mercy, this place took away all my weaknesses and showed it all to me. Like a helpless child, I was haunted, terrified and barely breathing. I needed a savior, someone came, just the right timing.
Overwhelmed of his presence, I never saw what was coming – DANGER. Instead of being careful, I was reckless, taking all the offers. Kind or unkind, sincere or deceitful.
I wasn’t blinded by love. I was blinded by the emptiness and longing I never knew I had inside. He was a human of pain, sadness, uncertainties, totally a lonely creature and it was contagious. The strongest challenger I had and this time with him, I lost something I have carefully kept for a very long time. Tough enemy.
Giving up was never an option because something was telling me that everything will be alright. That one day he will wake up looking for me and will tell me, “I’m still here because I know you’re coming. Now you’re mine”. I just wanted him to own me. Inside this cocoon of coldness, I was hoping that his cold heart will change for me, giving me the warmth I needed.
DAYDREAMING.
Just when I am ready to bestow my heart, taking the risk of his untold mystery, Good God, showed me of what may be the outcome of my fearless act.
