The Secret Remains

In our individual lives we keep some things left unseen that even our family or friends don't have any idea.We do this because sometimes we are afraid that they will not understand us.We are afraid that they will misunderstood our feelings giving us only depression and disappointment.

But when worst comes to worst, we can never burden ourselves to keep those secrets to remain as secrets forever.We may even feel ashamed remembering those childish secrets we use to hide. We laughed at those awkward situations where we have been caught and we even cry when we remind ourselves of all the agony we experienced.(good thing we passed it all through..)

It could have been better if it's not difficult to unravel all the secrets we carefully keep inside in our deepest ego.It could have been much easy if we know how to tell those secrets that haunt us every time we feel alone and deserted.

But the urge to say yes is always defeated by no. The desire to say I can is always engulfed by the
strong power of I can't.



Now tell me who are we to dig others secrets? Who are we to reveal the clandestine pursuits of some people who are afraid to reveal it themselves?

I may say that even those people are very dear to our hearts we cannot command
them to say what they don't want to say.And I may say that I cannot even convince myself to tell the secrets I myself only know.


Secrets are part of my being.

Even my closest friends can't guess those secrets I hide but I would rather keep those secrets hidden than to expose those mysteries.

Keeping my secrets have may or may not brought good results in my life because...

the more I keep my secrets the more distant I am to people
the more I hide my secrets the more people say

I don't understand

the more I deny my secrets the more people tell me

you're weird

Hearing those words are irritating but as time passed I learned to love it..so I
embraced the word weird with all my heart to describe myself.

I am the unfathomable human being ..
misunderstood..
and abandoned in my own world..

I don't care?I care less? at times yes..at times no..

I tell you it is not easy to be tagged as weird and the unfathomable one...
(unless you are as strong as i am..well i have to!)


and ask me when will I learn to dump this unfathomable personality?

I will never..

ask me when will my secrets be divulge?

I guess those secrets will remain to be secrets until the time comes that I'll be brave enough to scream it loud so that everybody could hear it.