I'm not Inlove

I’m not in love, so don’t forget it
It’s just a silly phase I’m going through
And just because I call you up
Don’t get me wrong, don’t think you’ve got it made
I’m not in love, no-no
I like to see you, but then again
That doesn’t mean you mean that much to me
So if I call you, don’t make a fuss
Don’t tell your friends about the two of us
I’m not in love, no-no

I keep your picture upon the wall
It hides a nasty stain that’s lyin’ there
So don’t you ask me to give it back
I know you know it doesn’t mean that much to me
I’m not in love, no-no

Ooh, you’ll wait a long time for me
Ooh, you’ll wait a long time

I’m not in love, so don’t forget it
It’s just a silly phase I’m going through
And just because I call you up
Don’t get me wrong, don’t think you’ve got it made, ooh

I’m not in love, I’m not in love…

EMOTIONS......

Emotions…

Hurt…Anger.Worries..Pain..Love..Loss..Longing..Disappointment...

What else do I have now?

My psyche is totally in crisis I couldn’t bear.

I cannot think right. It is crowded with too much misery.

I cannot stand still. My courage is wavered.

I’ve been thinking a lot and it gives me a hell lot of pain…here ---in the head.

I am not empty. I am brimming with too much toxic in the heart and in the mind, instead. So how could I be so poor?

It is unfathomable. It has always been.

A macabre life is not what I have in my reverie. I want to live. Where is my life?

I have loved so much. I have cared more than what I can give. I have given more than what I have.

And it’s still nothing.

(People used to dream big but when you grow up, you’ll’ realize dreaming is not always a sweet escape.
Dreaming fools an innocent and pure heart of a tot. They are taught to dream big, to create their own picture of the world they want to live in. After building its fantasy, the real world will welcome you with a BANG! Disappointment strikes in! Dreaming will bring you to perdition because the world is not good. It’s never been good.

Dreaming plus the world-----not a good pair! Forget it!)


Back to reality.

I have done well but not enough to make things accurate.

I need to do something else. Something crazy. Something wild. I need to forget the lame me.

Get that new me out of the box!

If you want to get a life, then MOVE.DAMN YOU GOLDY!

If I could just punch that fluke, I would capture it. I will never let it go!
One chance is enough to make everything all right. Just give me that one chance!

Knock off ding..

It’s just been a bad day…

How could it happen so fast?Why does it always end like this?

I am hurting...I'd never thought it will happen again.

This blog is almost flooded with pain and losses, why can't i write something that is FOREVER..something that is MINE...

I have fallen in love for someone I thought who could give his ALL...

I wanted you to stay because I started to dream of myself with you...

I wanted you to love me without any hesitations....

I wanted you to be the man of my life....

I wanted you to do it because I need you...

I wanted you to give up something because I can promise you that your sacrifice is all worth it....

I wanted you to be the person I will hold on to FOREVER...

I wanted you to give your life to me because if you did..I'm willing to do the same...

All I really wanted was you..NOTHING ELSE and NO ONE ELSE....

How could I wanted to own you this much if you don't want it?????


How could I be so bitter...

How could I be so selfish...

DAMN!....