“ I'm waiting for the day when I can have you by my side again, until I've had my fill; that's all I ask to create a world where I can always find refuge if I need it; not so far away that I can't be seen to be having an independent life and not so close that it looks as if I'm invading your universe”
Waiting.....
I guess I have been waiting for you all my life since I found out what true love means. Waiting makes me tired at times...angry... irritated...helpless...worst it triggers me to give up. Every other day I felt different emotions but above all of these confusing and disturbing feelings – one thing I'm certain of is the love I felt for you.
Haven't you asked yourself if this is just a mere coincidence, a fluke of nature or destiny?
Because I do. I do ask myself if this is just another game that life wanted us to play and if this is really another life's game, I want to win this time (that if life will treat me fair). I already had you once but I lost it. Now destiny or whatever they call it, gave both of us a chance. Would you grab it or would you just let go? You don't have to throw back the same question because I will always give you the same answer like I have always said many years ago...Yes!I would grab it and will hold on. I didn't sacrifice this much if only I would just refuse at the end.
But even if I wanted you this much,I don't want to push you to your limits. I don't want to succumb you to do the same. What I want is that you will be at peace with your feelings. I want you to be happy when you are ready to make a choice. I want you to know what you want.
I'm willing to wait because I love you and because I love you I don't want you to love me "just because I love you".
It's crazy to think that I see my future with you. Am I too stupid to indulge myself into a reverie that seems so unreal? And I am too childish if I assume you feel the same way?
Do you see things the same? Do you envision yourself with me? Hmmm..silly thoughts..
Allow me to say that I am stupid and I am really a certified daydreamer but nevertheless I'm still the realistic optimist. Before I foresee all these pictures in my mind, what I'm excited about is you to become successful and become the man that you wanted to be.
While you realize all of your dreams, I will gather all my strength to wait for you until you will become the man ready to be loved by me.
And if waiting for you would mean hurt and pain – then I will be willing to bleed for you. It will only come to a halt when you tell me to stop loving you..when you tell me that you don't love me anymore...but even if our love story will end, you have to know that I will never love a man the way I loved you and if I did I will be living in a body of a different woman because for me there's one and only you.
