Friday, July 31, 2009

just the way it is..just the way you are….

Uncertainty of emotions sometimes visit my vulnerable heart. This has been one of my moods or I should say a routine in my life..it comes once a week, in a month or even in unexpected days.
Some of the closest people in my life would describe me as weird but I don't worry too much about this comment I'm thankful instead. Because of this weirdness I was able to cope with the miserable and solitary moment of my life. I am the kind of person who motivates her own self and that is how i wrote these words...

When everything has ended

there would never be a glance again and no matter what I do. Nothing will ever change. Everything happened because it’s supposed to happen. I can’t argue with the law of nature and more with the story that God has written about my life. I could never question why life has been bitter the past years; I could never doubt why I have less in life compared with others… I could never be sad why I have to experience the hapless moments in life and I could never be angry why I have to meet people who will just let me cry. I have no right to question the life He planned .All of those things happened to teach me the things I need to learn and to grow as a strong person just the way He wanted me to be.

Life has been an endless round of questions and doubts but no matter how it turns over and over, the end is still the same. Would you ever ask if a circle has really a beginning and an end? Finding the answer would take all the years of your life. You just have to believe it has.

Life sometimes has its blissful moments, sometimes with downfall and misery. Whatever story it was it still ends the same way with the same words to say “I made it through’.

Crying times are the hardest days when we can all think about is the cruelty of the world. How could it be that we just thank God when we feel lucky but not in times of sorrow? Just like the way friends remember friends when they are in trouble but left you behind when they are in ecstasy?

Life is full of surprises and some of these surprises are the things we wouldn’t want to imagine. But God has his own way of making surprises. It would be through a gift with colorful wrap yet as we open it inside is a hand –full of trials. After then it depends on us on how to search for the true gift, to find the real gift He gave to us. Don’t be deceived by anything that appears magnificent outside or don’t be confused of a one time failure ‘coz through it only you can define the words Love and God.

Don’t say that you’re the only one who is weeping. God is also hurt to see you suffer like that. He did not make you to see you cry. When you are in the moment of despair, all He wanted to hear is your voice calling His name and that would only be the time He speaks and you will be left with nothing but a flowing undying love.

To whom I’m saying all this?!HAHAHAHAHA ..(loko..you’re writing for yourself again goldy…..eeerrrr)

Maybe I just hear want I wanted to hear from myself…WEEEEEE…


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